Into A New Year

Is every year getting worse? Sometimes it feels like saying good riddance to the last year is the evil twin of having high hopes for the new year. It’s like there’s a law of inverse proportions; the worse the last year, the better the next year must be to make up for it. 2025 was loathsome, empty, the lowest of lows. 2026 needs to make up for that.

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Echoes of an Unlived Life

For almost a year I’ve been bouncing around to different locations hoping a ‘new life’ might take hold. Mostly, though, in my mind I’ve been trying to make peace with an unlived lifea life I never got to live because it got sabotaged. It’s territory that comes with aging — not really regrets, but looking back and wondering where the path untaken or the turn that dead ended might have led. Continue reading

Gone to Oregon

Gone to Oregon for the summer, seeking what lies beyond the pandemic. The world has certainly changed, and it doesn’t feel like there’s a place for ‘writers’ and ‘thinkers’ anymore. Tucson stopped feeling that way or perhaps just robbed whatever I brought there. I stumbled upon fraud more often than not when looking for work, and I even got accused of fraud by the unemployment office. People latched onto an idea of me as their Uber driver not knowing it was only a side gig. Tucson just wasn’t working. Continue reading

The InBetween Summer

Autumn has arrived in Arizona. I didn’t write a blog post the whole summer. I had a few abandoned ideas, but nothing came to fruition. Maybe it’s because I didn’t have much of a working life due to the pandemic. I was living off Pandemic Unemployment Assistance (PUA), and the staffing agencies that usually give me contract or temp work were amazingly quiet. Now PUA has ended, and I’m still looking for work. The staffing agencies are still quiet, and there are few other prospects, so it’s looking more and more like I’ll need a seasonal job of some kind for the holidays. Continue reading